3rd Year and Final Blog Post

Saturday, Feb 11 2017 my husband has resided in heaven for 3 years.
3 years! There are still days when it feels like the other day and days when it feels like such a long time ago.
I'm adjusting, adapting, accepting. You would think by now I would be through but there are still situations that occur that I need to adjust to. Changes in my life I need to adapt to and changes I must accept. Thus is life and this is mine.
Some days I want to scream "You left me behind"
Some days I smile at the thought of my husband.
I can't think of a day that goes by he doesn't pass through my mind.
Tears aren't sitting behind my eyes although I can still get caught off guard and fight them back.
It's progress.
I make plans, I'm active in caregiver support and Lewy Body Dementia support. I co authored a caregiving book. I've traveled. I enjoy my job, I love the time I get to spend with my family.
I stay busy on purpose, sometimes too busy but with the help and guidance of the Lord I'll find a balance.
I'm doing ok.
So, in the words of an old Gospel Hymn

"I don't know about tomorrow

I just live for day to day
I don't borrow from the sunshine
For it's skies may turn to gray

I don't worry o'er the future
For I know what Jesus said
And today I'll walk beside Him
For He knows what lies ahead

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand" - Ira Stanphill